[lively jazz music]Hi, good evening.Welcome, thank you so much for joining us here online today.My name is Allison Hussey,I am a staff writer at Pitchforkand I’m here to talk about the future of jazzwith some really wonderful artists.We’re doing this in conjunctionwith the Doris Duke Charitable Foundation.Gonna start off by introducing our panelists.We’re gonna start off with Cécile McLorin Salvant,Jen Shyu and Samora Pinderhughes.And we’re just going to talk aboutwhat they’ve been working on.What’s been going on in the worldand how they’ve brought that into their work.And we’re just gonna jump right in here.So if we could first start by talking about Cécile,you know, how did you first get interested in jazzor, you know, how did it come to you?And if each of you could like work through those?I’ll start with Cécile.I think my mom is really the first personto introduce me to jazz.She listened to a lot of music from all over the world,including jazz.She was, I mean, she is a huge fanof folkloric music and I consider jazz a part of that.And so it was mostly thanks to her.[Allison] Mm-hmm, and Jen, how about you?I would say it’s because of my parentsthat I started studying music,but they were not definitely not musicians.They love music though.My dad, somehow in Taiwan,fell in love with Western classical musicand brought that passion over with him to the US.And then my mom loved folk musicand Judy Collins, Simon and Garfunkel.And so growing up with thatlearning classical piano and violin was something I thinksecond generation Asian Americans often did.Mm-hmm. And then that grewinto musical theater and singing.And then through musical theater,I kind of found the songs of Cole Porter and Cy Colemanand kind of entered into jazz in that, in that way.So, yeah.Okay. Yeah.And Samora how about for you?Yeah, I mean,I definitely like was introduced to music firstthrough the family homeand basically every type of music was on in the house.And I think the first jazz musician or person, I don’t,it’s perfect for me actually,because the first musician that might be consideredin that space that I listened to was Nina Simone,who was like, you know,one of my greatest inspirations because I mean,among many other things,she just speaks to the times in her work.And also she can’t really be categorized as anything?Mm-hmm. And so I think I,I got that early.And then as far as studying the music more,that came when I went to this programcalled the Young Musicians Core Orchestra,which at the time was called Young Musicians Program.And that’s it was a free programfor young people where you got all this different training.And I had a teacher named Geechi Taylor who basicallyturned me onto Miles, turned me onto Herbie.Once I heard Herbie, I was like, Oh, piano, okay.This is what we’re doing. [group chuckling]Cool.And yeah, kind of springing from there.I’m interested in hearingabout like what each of your experienceswere like with formal music education.You know, obviously there’s a lotof positive aspects to this,but sometimes these structures are not necessarily set upin a way that favors or rewards,like people who want to think kind of likebeyond the bounds of genre or anything else really.So yeah, like for better or for worse,like what was your musical education experience like?And Samora, since you were just kind of there,we’ll start with you.Yeah. I mean, I think,I think the Young Musicians Core Orchestra,that time was the part in my life where the conceptionof formal music education really worked the best for me,but I don’t necessarily think it was because it was formal,but more because it was consistentand it was still community based.Mm-hmm. And that’s I think the thingthat was maybe lacking in other situations I’ve been inthat have to do with thatis that sometimes they feel very cold to me personally.And so that space was really more of a welcoming space.It was basically like a home,like for a bunch of kids that like wouldn’t be ableto study music otherwise and all just super passionate.And I think also just all super gratefulbecause it’s like, we want this so badand this place is giving us, you know,all of this to be able to do it for real.Mm-hmm.And so I think that was the best yeah,the best version of that.And I think it also was lucky for me becauseeven though I was really there just to play piano,they let me be a composer. Mm-hmm.And that really made me think that I could do itand we’d have all these older elders, you know,Frank Foster and like just old, you know, catslike come out and just be like, Yes, you can do this,just study this and da-da-da.And so I think that was the best version of it for me,for me, like later in my life, you know,going to higher education spaces and things.I think the biggest criticism I had of it was just that theynever asked me why. Mm-hmm.You know?It was almost like it waslike a trade school thing or something.Which I don’t knock at all and I think I got,I’m really grateful for the training that was present,but I think the training is necessary,but it has to come with the why.Mm-hmm. Because I think,if it doesn’t come with the why then number one,it can feel like you’re very divorced from, you know,yourself and your soulfulness and even the abilityto take risks and do things like that.[Allison] Mm-hmm.And I also think that it kind of makes you feellike you need to fit in. Mm-hmm.You know?And that was the biggest issue for meat different points in my lifewas that I often didn’t feel like I fit in.And so as a result for a long time, I kind of hid myself.And it’s only recently that I’ve been like,no, you shouldn’t,you shouldn’t have that reaction to being yourself.Mm-hmm, okay.Beautiful. Yeah.Yeah.Jen, how about you?It’s interesting, the word assimilation came in to my headbecause I think when I was thrown into studying balletand classical piano and violin?You know, ballet, I really loved.Piano, it became more cause the competitionsand it became like the rigor of the training, and I don’t,it’s kind of amazing that I went through that?[Jen chuckling]But kind of, I mean I loved, you know,I’d watch the Van Cliburn piano competitionand we’d tape it and then I would watch itto get inspired and go practice.And then, but I think the one thing, you know,that I was absolutely terrified of was improvising.Which is so, you know, kind of funnylooking back on that time,but, but yeah, that training did not allow it.And especially if you’re competing?I kind of encountered my teacher later,who was amazing pianist named Roger Shields,who took from Soulima Stravinsky, who is Igor’s son.So that training he gave me and my brother,he kind of told me later that, you know,Jen, the students I train, you know,their parents just want me to get them winning competition.So there just wasn’t room to teach improvisationor even to listen to the, you know,the great, you know, jazz musicians.And so that was fascinating.I never went through a school for that.That was just like private lessons.I found my way there, but,so with vocal training, you know,with musical theater, that was more self taught.I definitely, you know,at that time I still had no identity,awareness of my identity, so it was still like,I wanna sing like Sarah Vaughn and I wanna sing like,you know, all the, you know, the stars of those musicals,back in the The Phantom of the Opera, Les Mis,Miss Saigon, especially. [Jen chuckling]I wanted to be miss Saigon for, yeah,I just really wanted to be on Broadway and be Miss Saigon.[group laughing]It’s like, that’s the only role, right?For Asian Americans, right?That’s crazy. For a woman.So that was kind of the dream.Mm-hmm. And at that time,but the singing, the training,I didn’t do training even when I first started singing,but then because of the piano and violin, I guess, you know,my parents said, Oh, maybe you can take voice lessons.So that was like art song and opera.And it took a while to kind of understandwhat I was going to do.Because at Stanford, I studied operaand it really was throughmeeting Asian American jazz musicians after graduating,who kind of guided me toward looking to my own ancestry,which never occurred to me before.Never. [Jen chuckling]And so that was, I feel like my real education began.Just like, oh, being aware of even being Asian Americanand then becoming interested in,well, what does the music of Taiwan sound like?And what about East Timor, where mom is from?And through the path, through kind of the models of,you know, Monk being himself and then, you know,Bird being himself.I was like, oh, I wanna try to be myself, too.You know? [Jen chuckling]And so that was how I found my roots.It’s through this circuitous kind of path, so I’m yeah.Okay. Yeah.[Jen laughing]Cool, yeah.We’ll certainly come back to, you know,talking about the directions that each of you have takenwith your projects, but Cécile I’m also interestedin hearing about like your experience too,because you went to school in France, is that right?I did.But this is so fascinating what you’re saying about sort ofcoming back to your family and to your ancestryas an adult. Yeah.Because I feel like as I’m getting older,that’s totally the case.I was not looking at where my parents were fromor what their music was.I was listening to the music that they listenedto growing up, but I just feel like I’m startingto go down a path of discovery of my own ancestry,which is so strange because I mean, I think I,so I studied jazz vocals in Franceand as like a black American woman,it felt like people just expected me to sing thatcause they were like,Well, that’s you, that’s your music of your people?And I was like, Well, no, my mom is Frenchand my dad is Haitian.They’re not, that’s not their music.Yeah. You know?But yeah, I studied, I was really, really luckywith the jazz program that I was inbecause it was in a tiny, no offense,[Cécile chuckling]in a small conservatory in the Southeast of France.I had always listened to Sarah Vaughnand really great jazz singers growing up, thanks to my mom.But I thought it was a dead music that nobody played.And I only ever heard on the radio around Miami,like Latin jazz?I didn’t hear many jazz singers that were alive.I didn’t really know it was something that people did.Mm-hmm. Until I moved to France.And then I met all of these musicians that were my ageand I started getting into it and I had one teacherand he is a reed player.He plays clarinet and saxophone.He’s not a singer by any measure.And he taught me and he would force me to play the piano,which I did begrudgingly.And he would have lunch with me every Wednesdayand tell me that I needed to practice.And it was really a one-on-one like intensive thing.He had no curriculum, he had no assignments.He gave me no pointers.He would just come every week with a tote bag full of CDs.And he’d say, do you know, Bessie Smith?And I’d be like, I don’t know what?[group chuckling]And just like, Listen to this, put it on your computerand listen to it.And we’d come to class and it was insane.It was like ensemble classes.So it was, you know, several instruments,maybe four of us and we’d come to classand he wouldn’t say a word.He would just sit in his chair in the corner.And sometimes it was like a staring contest.Sometimes he would just look at usand after like five minutes of silence, we’d be like,So what do you want us to do?And he’d be like, I don’t know, what do you wanna do?Like, I don’t need to spoonfeed you.Like, what do you have to ask me?And so I was really lucky in that my first experiencewith this music was teach yourself,discover things yourself, ask questions,and don’t wait for someoneto give you all the techniquesand all the ideas and all the, you know,really, really be an autodidact.And I feel really grateful for that.Mm-hmm. It was scary though.It was. [group laughing]Yeah, that sounds really intense, but also a lot of fun.Just the ideas- It was fun.I mean, and he would, he would do stuff like,if a student had issueswith like the rhythm of something?He’d be like, Well just play the drums.And like they’d not play their instrument for a classand just play the drums.Or, you know, I did a competition that I won for vocals.And he basically, when I went back to the school was like,Well, you won this competition for vocals,so you’re not singing anymorefor the rest of your time here.I was behind the piano for the rest for the next year.Terrible.But you know, it was, it was kind of a funky,funky, fun way to learn. Mm-hmm.That I think can only happen if you’re notin a big school.That’s like, no offense Aix-en-Provence, I love you guys.[group chuckling]But you know, it’s one teacher withfour students. And also like the wayyou talked about in the classroom, for some reason,it just make me think of therapy, you know?It’s like- Yeah.You gotta, like, I’m here to give you the tools,but you have to give something of yourself first to like,for us to get into it for real, you know?Exactly. Yeah.That’s exactly right.And I feel like so many times when we take private lessonsor we take music lessons,I don’t know if this was the case for you,but you kind of come in waiting for the teacherto tell you like, Okay, well open to page four.Yeah. He would be like, Well?Yeah. [group chuckling]Yeah.That’s wild. Wow.So kind of going back to somethingthat we’ve already gotten close to,I wanna hear about how like a sense of historyhas influenced how you approach your work.I know, you know, Jen and Cécile,you’ve both talked about like your family relationshipwith this and yeah, some more I’m interestedin hearing too, just like,and maybe Jen, you could start by talking a little bitabout your Zero Grasses projectand like how history came into thatand you know, what each of you are doing that’s kind of,that brings us in and you know, why take this approach?Yeah, well, it’s, it’s so powerful to hear you talk about,you, you know, discovering this, the paththat your parents took, you know?You know, when I went to Taiwan for the first timeembarking on that journey, it was really emotionaland kind of music was just this kind of excuseto go over there.And, you know, it’s like,Oh yeah, I’m really interestedin the folk music of Taiwanand the indigenous music of Taiwan.Of course I was.But kind of the real stuff was sitting with my auntiesspeaking Mandarin, like consistentlyfor the first time, you know?And it’s funny cause our parents,I’m curious to hear your stories, but like,they might not have known.Like my parents never,they really wanted me to do Western classical music.They thought was great, you know?And when I was getting interested in, you know,dad’s homeland’s music, he’s like,Hmm like, is that popular?Is anyone gonna understand it?And even my aunties, you know, I’d go out and do field work.I’d learn from Taiwanese moon lute teachers, elders,and you know, this kind of really nasally singingand you know, no training, you know,and my teachers would always say like,I can’t read, I can’t read, you know?Cause they weren’t, you know,they couldn’t read Chinese characters, but,so I played my aunties what I learnedand they like,[Jen chuckling]and they would say things like,[speaking in Mandarin]Like, it sounds good, but I don’t like it.[group laughing]Cause it would remind them of the farmersand the poor folks who would ask money,like knock on their door and ask for moneyand they’d play a song and ask for money.And so like,I will never forget my fourth grand auntie said that,like I played her, this song,it took so long to learn the pronunciationcause I don’t speak Taiwanese.I speak Mandarin.Taiwanese is much more difficultand I was so proud and she’s like,It sounds good, but I don’t like it, you know?It’s too close. Yeah.It really, it brought up these kind ofnot great memories for her.Yeah. Interesting.And you know, brought up war time.Right, right. Colonization.You know, Japan invading Taiwan.And then yeah, I mean it brought up war memories.And so that is so interesting to like,I always kind of blame my parents.Like why didn’t you make me speak Chinese?Or why didn’t you teach me Taiwanese and Hakka?You know, I could have been like quadruple lingualby the time I was, you know, 12.[Jen chuckling]And, they’re like, Well, we just wanted youto speak really perfect Englishcause we didn’t get that chance, you know?When we came here and now you speak perfect English,no obstacles for you, you know?That kind of thing.So it’s so powerful.I feel so?I totally feel what you’re saying.I mean, I don’t speak Creole,which I am now really sad that I don’t.And I wanna learn.My grandmother’s brother who passed away taught Occitan,which is an old language from the Southwest of France,which is where my grandmother’s from.Right. Never was interestedin asking him like, what are the songs?And he would sing me some of those songsand like, how do you pronounce it?And now I’m calling my mom,like how do you pronounce this like 1300 year old poemin Occitan that I wanna set to music?And she’s like, Well, everyone died.Like you’re too late, you know?Wow, yeah. And I feel,I feel a lot, like I feel strange about that.I’m just like, wow.I feel like I’m coming to this too late.[Cécile chuckles]I mean, it’s never too late, you know?It’s like- Yeah.And I think there’s a weird diaspora thing where you feel,I don’t know if you feel this way,but where you kind of go back to these places and you feellike the American and you’re like-Totally. You’re like, you know,for lack of a better term,you’re like the white person, you know?Yeah. In Africa they say that,and you’re just like coming in with, you know,your questions and your accent.Maybe not even speaking the language and wanting to connectwith it, but you’re foreign. [Cécile chuckling]Yeah.And you’re foreign here too in a way.So it’s just, it’s such a trip.Yeah. I’m talking too much.No, no, no, absolutely. No it’s great.That’s great. Yeah.I mean, I feel, you know, my dad passed 2019and the album I created- I’m sorry.It’s okay, thank you. [Jen chuckling lightly]But I created Zero Grasses kind of out of,it was supposed to be this other piece.And then I was doing research in Japan for this piece.It was supposed to be really just about climate changeand how humanities still cannot solve this issue,despite all our technological advances, you know?That was supposed to be that show.And when my dad passed, I was just doing research in Japan,learning biwa, learning Japanese and on my trip, you know,and then he passed suddenly and it’s like,oh, okay, gotta go take care of mom, gotta stop my research.And you know, so I,but I still had the premier in the falland it just became an homage to dad and yeah.And there’s so many questions,like I wish I could have asked him, you know?And so I told the make-up lady I would cry.But. [Jen laughing]That’s real.But yeah, I think and it’s called Ritual for the Losses.I kind of, I was supposed to release it before, you know,but the pandemic happened,but it allowed me to add songsthat I wrote during the pandemic.So there was a piece of,I worked with a choir, a middle school choir,and I had them write about, you know,quarantine, what did that mean to them?And they wrote, and then I compiled, I told them,Well, I’m gonna write music with your lyricsand we’re gonna write this, you know,create this poem together.And so that spoke about this middle school angstin the most important, you know,kind of formative years where they’re just, you know,cooped up in this small cage, you know?That’s one of the lyrics that they,one of the poetic lines that they gave meand just like, yeah, politicians telling us,they’d rather keep their economy intactthan keep us alive, you know?And like, just like, ah, 12 years old.Strife. Strife, yeah,they know what’s going on.And I also wrote a song, Lament for Breonna Taylorkind of reading, just from interviews of her mother,speaking about how she was afraid of Briannagetting COVID because she was a medical worker.And just that, that article was,it was People Magazine ‘article.And just how tragic, you know, that reading that wasand reading Tamika Palmer’s words about her daughter.So the album became as Ritual for the Lossesconfronting grief,but talking about itwhich could segue into your project.[Jen chuckling]It’s on the mind. So, yeah.And that’s something that, you know,grief is not somethingthat we typically make a good job for,or that we do a good job of making room for.Kind of, I think,on like culturally and kind of on an individual basis.I think a lot of people just, it’s a difficult,it’s a lot Yeah.And it’s difficult to process it,but I’d like to hear from you about just likewhat your relationship with that is,bringing that into your work.And you just spoke about it a little bit, but you know,why channel grief this way?Yeah.Me?Yeah, Samora, I think we’ll start with yousince Jen just spoke.Yeah.Tell us about your most recent projectand how it reckons with grief.Yeah, I mean, well, first of all,I just wanna say thank you for sharing that.And just in general, I mean, I thinkwhat I always appreciate, among many things,about both of youis just that you’re just always honest, you know?And that’s part of the grieving thing, too.To me, I think that’s where it started for meis that you’re being honest.Grieving is just such a complicated process.It looks obviously different for everybody,but I think the one commonality,at least how I’ve observed itis that it pretty much looks like everything.And so, yeah, I mean, the projectthat you’re referring to,I made an album called Grief that, you know,just got released this year.It was part of this larger projectcalled The Healing Project.And I mean, it definitely does feel like,obviously it’s in the air, you know,from the last couple years of just everyone, you know,it just touching everybody.And I see so many artists, you know, responding to thatand being real about that.But obviously in general,I think we all, you know, deal with it all the time.But I think that one of the things that made me wantto write a lot about it was that it feelslike the source of a lot of the,or the epicenter, of a lot of the thingsthat we say are wrong with people,but really they’re grieving, you know?Yeah. And particularlyfor black people and brown people,you know, and it’s like,particularly because we centralize people in certain wayswe demonize, we criminalize them in certain ways.Right.When really they’re grieving.Yeah.That’s what they’re going through, you know?Yeah. And so I think, you know,a big part of the healing project,which was based in all these, you know,this five year process of doing interviewsaround the country, you know,with different folks of all different agesthat were moving through experienceswith structural violence was just thatso many people were grieving,but they just didn’t, they weren’t given,on the one hand,the society and the structure didn’t give themneither the tools nor the options to grieve,which is part of what you’re talking about.It’s like, you don’t, this isn’t,it’s not on your timetable.It’s like, get over it.You got three days, you got whatever you got,you got the funeral and it’s a wrap, you know?And it’s like, that’s not how it’s gonna work, you know?And when you force somebody to do that,they sublimated it in different ways.And then it comes out, however, it comes out.But the other part, which was really beautifuland I think came to the personalfor me was that when I started doing the interviews,I also realized that there were so many peoplethat had those tools and were using them in the community,you know, because like they were needed.And it was like, oh, this is where the informationis for how, what all of us need to be ableto grieve properly.And in so many like little details, like I’ll try to,I don’t wanna make it too long, buta quick story is that there’s a woman named Sharon Huitwho has since passed away,who I interviewed for the project.She was like the mother of San Francisco.Like everybody knew her in San Francisco.And she told me a story as part of the interviewsabout like one of the daysthat basically one of the things she would dois that she would be a personthat when somebody lost their child to violence,she would show up and they didn’t know her or anything.And she described to me the processthat she would go through when she shows up,like, cause they don’t know her.And she’s like, I do this, this and this.And she tells this honestly hilarious storyabout how she’s basically like I’m giving you this.Like she gives them, you know, goes through a processwith them.Are you getting this?What you need, what you need, what you need?And then also like,I’m gonna give you this money so you can buy toilet paperbecause everyone’s gonna come to your houseand they’re gonna like bring all this stuffand they’re gonna use up all your toilet paperand you’ll have nothing left and you’re gonna be like,you know, grieving.And you’re not gonna have wanna go to the store.And then call them like a week later.And they’re like, Don’t, you know,I didn’t have no toilet paper, like da, da, da.And she’s like, Now they trust me.And that’s like, they know I’m gonna show up.And it was just like the most practical, simple things,you know? Yeah.And I just know when people have passed in my life,like those are the things that I appreciated the most.When people were, were present with it.And I think there’s a big culture aroundlike being present for somebody that’s grieving,but also kind of sidestepping it and just like,not really, not because people don’t wanna be there for you,because they really don’t know how.Yeah, yeah. So that’s kind of where,where the album started and where the project got into that.And my hope is just that people will,people who are grieving will be able to feel seen and heardin their grieving processand know that it’s okay for it to be messy.And also that hopefully they’ll have some tools.Mm-hmm, yeah.Wow, yeah.The woman you mentioned who just like shows upand just helps people out?People like that are just like special.I don’t know, like I that feelslike such a simplistic way to put it but it’s just like-It’s simple though.Yeah it is, it’s simple. Yeah, just to be ableto like show up for peopleand to like actually be ableto like make meaningful differences is like, it’s huge.And not to, to continue too long,but that does go to the historical thing you were asking meabout because to me that’s also the importanceof the archive is because a lot of those peopleare not the people that are archived, you know?Those are not the peoplethat like are written articles about,or you know, that anybody knows.I mean, everybody knows them in the community.Like everybody knows them where they’re from,and that should be the most important thing.But also I do find it, that is a beautiful thingto archive that and archive our stories, you know?All these things that wouldn’t necessarily normally bein the historical record.Definitely.Yeah, did either of you have like other grief thoughtsyou wanted to share before we keep moving?[group chuckling]I don’t know.I don’t know if that I have many other grief thoughts.I just think it’s interesting that like,I’m wondering now, did you call us,is it jazz that connects us or is this this like-Whole set of things?Yeah, yeah. [group laughing]Like, should we be like in a funeral home?[group laughing]It’s kinda an interesting thread among us, but you know,all of our albums recently are dealing somehow or anotherwith ghosts and grieving and loss and it’s kind of crazy,right? Yeah.Something in the air. Yeah, yeah.Yeah. It’s funny.Yeah. It’s funny to hear you say that too, but also liketo think about that sense of like grieving and loss,but also not having it have the singular toneof being like super sad. Yeah.That like, yeah, that grief can,that it does kind of have a lot of different colors to it?I don’t know if that’s like quite the right way to put it,but that there, that like,it is a different experience for a lot of peopleand it’s just, yeah.Each of you has a different approach to it as well.[Jen] Yeah.And kind of building on,we were just talking about a little bit,I’d like to hear from y’all about the ways that communityinforms your work.And Samora you’ve talked about it in a bit moreof like a direct and concrete sense,but Cécile, the way that you were talking aboutlike the jazz classes or the like classesthat you were in and the waythat like being in a smaller schoolchanged like your relationship with learning.And so, yeah, and Jen,the way that you were also speaking about like your auntiesand, you know, how does a sense of community shape,like what each of you do?That’s a, that’s a tough question.Cause it certainly does, butI for one, I’m extremely,I would say socially hesitant.I’m not anxious, but I’m very much an introvert.So I often shy away from community.If that makes any sense.Like I’m often like hiding from community,even though I know that’s what I need.And I think these last few years have taught mehow essential it is and how my soul needs itand how I often deny the things that my soul need.And so I don’t know if, I mean, that’s all,that’s all I can say about it.For me. Yeah.Yeah, community is such a big word.I mean, I also, I feel the introvert, that is my core,but then, I feel like it’s,it also brings so much richnessand informs me and inspires me as well.If I think about community in my recent days,I know I mentioned this before, but,with my wonderful co-founder Sara Serpa,we co-founded a Mutual Mentorship for Musicians Initiativeand realizing that when we were in our twenties,we really didn’t have any, many, maybe one?[Jen chuckling]Woman mentor to guide usand to kind of help us navigate power dynamics.You know, whether be it harassment or just microaggressions.And so we, we thought, well, as a community,like what did we want?Like, what did we wish we had?So this was kind of a way that we could generate that?That we had the ability to do.So just getting together 12 artists, some who I didn’t know,and some Sara I didn’t know.And just, we wanted to see how we could make it work.Like, you know, one-on-one mentorshipas well as group kind of support andokay, let’s do two meetings a month.Let’s do three months?No, but then everyone wanted more, so, okay.We’ll change it to six months.And it was just like constantly amorphous thing.And, wow.I mean, just to have so much like kind of voicesthat I’ve never heard,perspectives that I never considered, you know?In one room, Zoom room. [Jen chuckling]In one Zoom room.You know, it was just, and all talking about our work,talking about our struggles and, and you know,what it was like to be, you know,one of our court members starting outas a woman saxophone player at Oberlinand experiencing all the, you know,kind of terrible traumatic stuff?And then later transitioning into a manand now being a saxophonist and how,what that is like for him.And so I’m not being very articulate, but,but just realizing, you know,I think as we step back and I kind of, and I think about,wow, the number of amazing artists that just are noton the marques or not on the headlinesor not headlining festivals.Yes. As they should be.And, we’re talking women in their seventies,you know, Shanta Nurullah is sitar player from Chicago,who is a storyteller, never performed in New York.And we’re honoring her with a lifetime achievement award,this festival.So we’re producing a festival in June.[Jen chuckling]And so we have 19 women and non-binary, queer artists,like it’s just 19 artists doing four nights in a row,you know, five sets per night,one of the nights is four,and then a gala evening.You know, so we’re producing all this and we’re just like,we’re creating it.We’re making this, we’re forming this community,we’re growing the community and kind of,we’re bringing people into the community.So, and giving voice to,and this is like something I wanted to share too,[Jen chuckling]is it’s an anthology of writingsfrom our first and second cohorts of each cohort member.You know, we’ve commissioned them,not only to create a music piece with a duo partnerwho they never worked with before,but also to write, you know, an essay.So here we go, Sara’s isMotherhood in Music in 10 Steps:the Invisible Work of Mother Musicians.It’s an amazing essay.And Sumi Tonooka is in here.Erica Lindsay, Michele Rosewoman.I mean, you know, like? Greats, yeah.[Jen reveling] [Jen chuckling]It’s like more people should know about Monnette Sudler,you know, so our elder women musicians,like where are they in the kind of the narrativeof, oh, the genius or the greats.They are.And they’re there.And so, yeah, so it’s just kind of thinking about community,which, you know, definitely at 20?I was not, I was just like, how do I survive here?How do I find my voice?You know, it was kind of,that’s kind of, yeah, it was just like,ah, survival, not drowning.And, you know, very fortunately, yeah,I would say Doris Duke is an institutionthat I feel so supported bythat has allowed me to think more broadly and think bigger.And what did I tell you about the pizza analogy?Yeah.So instead of like, I want a bigger piece of pizza,it’s like, oh, let’s make the pizza bigger, you know?It’s actually a skater told me that analogy.[Jen laughing]Skater wisdom, but yeah.So that’s kind of, what’s on my mindwhen you say the word community.Yeah. Yeah, I mean, I definitely,I definitely resonate with,I like how you said it,cause I definitely say socially anxious.I’m trying to not define myself as anxious anymore,although I definitely deal with anxiety.Yes. But I think for me,part of what I realized that was behind thatand I’m, this is a little bit of departure,but I do try to be honest about this,sometimes now is that like, I really,I think I had a running narrative and I still am tryingto work out of having a running narrativethat like I’m the worst.And like, no one likes me and no one is, you know?Like it’s really it’s a thing.And I don’t know where it came from, but it’s like,you know, I think that, I’m realizing,that’s part of what brought me to that, you know,fear of building that communitywhen really I did like desperately want it.Mostly selfishly, cause I wanna be accepted, but you know,so I’m working through that but I think as a result,like community, for me,the way I came to it in the work was really politically.Mm-hmm. Mostly just becauseI felt like I had to represent, not had to,but I wanted to represent a community ethic in everythingthat I did so that it would not justlike be that artistically, but that it would,that I wouldn’t be reproducing thingsthat I didn’t believe in, in capitalism.And like, but you know, that I didn’t believein that solitary genius idea.And I didn’t believe in this like, you know,cult of celebrity and all these different things.And also like even in the minute details of, you know,crediting and publishing, you know?These things that like you don’t think aboutwhen you’re a young artist and then like a lot of, you know,my friends and different people that, you know,you get taken advantage of. Yeah.And I just never, I just so desperately did not wannabe on the other side of that.Mm-hmm. You know?I was just like, oh, like I don’t wantto give another person this feeling, you know?Mm-hmm. And that was reallylike my greatest fear. Mm-hmm.And then on top of that, I think, you know,I really didn’t feel like I could do anything alone.I think if I like knew how to do some things alone,maybe I would’ve done them more.Because I am also simultaneously a control freak,but? [group laughing]You know, I also like really desperately need peopleand it’s become the most beautiful thingbecause that has become, you know, my greatest friendsand has become all these different things.And I think this project has allowed meto then take it the next step to really feel itas a lifeline for myself and for others.And you know, being in correspondencewith brothers of mine who are incarcerated,who like, you know,that’s the only way we communicate, you know?But through that process, not only are we,am I able, you know, we’re sharing our ideas,but also we, you know, support each otherand that’s kind of like the biggest part for me.Okay. Yeah.So all of you are kind of,this feels like not the best word to use for it,but all of you, I guess, are like multi hyphenateswhere all of you just have like many talents and do,you know, do more than one thing.How do you, in terms of like creative practices,how do you kind of figure out likewhich threads you want to followwith whatever kind of art you’re making?Whether that’s like a visual pieceor like composing or performance?I can go for this, I’ll go. [group laughing]I mean, yeah.I mean, yeah, like it’s just the best, I don’t know.I just love having no boundaries.I just love having no boundaries.Yeah. Yeah.And it took me a long timeto get to that point where I felt likeI could have no boundaries with what I createand not think about what format it would take.And that was a big part of community too,because part of the way that I was able to realize that wasthat I didn’t need to have all the skills to make my ideascome to life. That’s a good point.Just had to good point deeply respect.Yeah. All the other peoplethat I was doing it with.And I wanted, it had to come from themas much that had come from me.And if we was doing that, then we’re good, you know?And so there were so many ideas I hadthat they weren’t music, but I’m like,I don’t know anything, first thing about a camera, you know?Right. I don’t knowthe first thing about wood work, you know?But now I have wood pieces and now I got films,but it’s also, it’s because of these collaborators,you know, the Christian Padronsand the Yon Yosegas and all these different,amazing collaborators, Sebastian Corn.So like making things with people allowed me to do anythingthat I want and them to do the same,because then I found out that a lot of them love musicand they were like, But I don’t play instrument.Yeah, yeah. So that was likethat opened up the whole thing.And then once it became that, it was just like,there’s so many ways that I want to reach people, you know?And not all of them are possiblejust through sonics, you know?Some of them are really powerful in that wayand they don’t work as well in other things,which I’ve also learned a lot about,I think particularly with like,I think it’s given me a greater appreciationof music as well. Mm-hmm.Because it makes me really understand what sound doesthat sometimes visuality has a problem with,because we’re so attuned to certain visual languagesand we are just seeing it all the timeand we come become very desensitized to certain things.Yes, yes. Mm.And so it’s like, actually I don’t really wanna see that,but I can hear about it and really actually be movedin a different way. Right.And so that actually made me like go back into the music,but there’s still certain things whereif I want to tell a storyor I wanna just like, you know, represent an idea,it’s not gonna come off the same waywith the music, you know?So I need that visual language.Yeah.I love that.I think,we were talking about this before we got on camera.I’m like getting back into music now.[group laughing]Like I know that’s probably sounds weird,but like I’ve really over the last couple months and yearshave discovered,it feels like I’ve discovered it for the first timethat it actually is realand it does stuff and it moves things and it’s,there’s nothing that can move a bodyand can animate a brain and a body the way music canand can animate memory the way music can.Like, it’s just, unequaled. Yeah.But I do feel very much like I’m a visual person first.And I will say my visual art practice comesfrom seeing my mom and my sister and my grandmamake art all the time at home.I just found out about this term called Sunday painters,which is just people who paint on Sundays.I love it. And they don’t show the workand it’s just for them.And they’re weekly, they’re not Sunday.They’re like every day, but they don’t,my sister has never shown her work.She’s an incredible visual artist.My mom has never shown her work.My grandma’s, like it’s in the house.Oh, wow.I remember growing up and weekends where my momwould be either painting or making a chairor doing lace work, learning how to do lace work,like traditional lace work from the Northwest of Francewith like the two last ladies who know how to do it.That’s so French.It’s so French. Just constantly goinginto like learning a craft or,and, you know, we say craft, I think it’s art.But learning an art that they don’t knowand just going for it and trying itand not having that pressure or even the desirefor other people to see it, it’s totally personal.And so I think I took a little bit of that.And so I, it’s funny, It’s like, it’s multi hyphenate,but I don’t even consider myself that.I’m just sort of doing what all these ladiesin my family do.Speaking of which can we also just likeshout out your mom? Yeah.[Jen cheering]Shout out to the jacket my mom made.Aww, it’s so beautiful.Hi mom. Wow.I love it. Amazing.I’m gonna be a Sunday painter.Like that’s just, that’s my,when I, you know, in my next life,definitely chef and painter are what I want to be.No, in this life. Yes. Yes.So now I think now I have a term that I can use,Sunday painter. Yeah, Sunday painter.But it’s also like, I kinda like using that ideaeven for music too. Yeah.And just not being like, you know, just?I admire people so much who, who just do not,they just do it- Do it to do it.Humbly to do it.Yeah. To spend the dayand it’s, I think it’s really beautiful and inspiring.And I know we all have people in our livesthat do that, right?Yeah. Totally.We all have that.I’m sure in our process, we? Yes.I definitely feel like in, even on stage,I’ve gotten to the point where it’s some momentsduring the performance, or maybe the whole whole time,I’ll just be in the most like raw or uncomfortable-You’ll be Sunday painter. And I kind of need that.Like, if it, I can’t, even if I have a showthat there’s a script and there’s lighting cues?Like there has to be something that goes wrong.Yes. Cause then it’s,then that’s, you know, I’m not happy.I’m not satisfied if everything goes right.[Jen chuckling]But like it’s funny cause when I,I think my first love is danceand that was my first,actually I didn’t improvise as a musician,but as a dancer, that’s all I did.So it was like- Wow.Ballet in the house.I took ballet lessons of course,and was in our local Peoria, Illinois ballet schoolspeaking small, you know?And you know, I did all the roles in The Nutcracker.So dance, I felt totally free with movement.And then I remember like singing?Well, when I began to connect those things,actually through musical theater.But my instruments were still kind of off in the distance.Like that’s that thing.That’s where I sit at the piano bench and play thator that’s the violin thing.And it wasn’t until living in the bay area. bay area.Bay area. Yeah, bay area.We really do that multi hyphen thing.Everybody does 10 things.Everybody does. No one does one thing.Exactly and that’s when, you know, cause,even my piano teacher was like,Jen, you can’t be a Jack of all trades.No, you go to somebody in the bay.They’re like, what are you?I’m a poet, I’m a painter. Yeah, everything.It’s like, you’re just a musician?No, no, what else do you do?You know it’s, so that was the first time,like I was given permissionand was called upon to like play violin and dances and sing.And I will never forget the first gig I did that.It was Doug Yokoyama saxophonist in the bay area.And he asked me to do that, you know, for his music.And after the performance, one my mentors,John Jane, a wonderful pianist in the bay area,he, after the show, he said at a restaurant,cause we all hung out after like,Jen, I had a vision, like I had a visionthat you’re just gonna bring it all together.Like wherever you go next.Like, and I ended up moving to New York from there,but he’s like,You’re gonna just bring it all together.[Jen laughing]And like that, that was like,I didn’t know what he was talking about really.But that was so exciting and so liberating, like-Was it scary at all? It was terrifying,cause I didn’t know what form that was.Yeah, right. Yeah. But cause I didn’t knowwhat I was doing on the stage.I was like dancing and then like playing some violin partand singing, I had no idea whether it was goodor what it looked like.Very insecure feeling, you know, and scary.And, but then to have him just give methat little ounce of confidence andlike seeing the future like that?That- You can consolidate.You can. Yeah and so integrationis always like, after moving to New York,like that’s what I, and especially when you travel,and like spending so much time in Indonesiaand like all the Gamelan musicians,they play every instrument,they also sing and they dance, you know,and the dhalang, who are the puppeteers,they sing and they know all the in instruments,they can play everything.You know, it’s like, of course it’s not a big dealand it’s, they couldn’t.And they say like, oh, you can’t just know this part.You have to learn that and these other parts for sure.You know, or else you’re not gonna understand the music.So that really shifted my mindset and changed.Yeah, kind of letting go of those like kind ofperfectionist, precious? The categories, right?Yeah. The boundaries.And just like the concern of not gettingthis one thing right. Mm-hmm.You know, it’s actually the whole, and so anyway.Yeah. That’s real.I think we’re kind of getting closeto the end of our time,but as we kind of approach thatI want to hear from each of you about, you know,we started out this conversation talking aboutwhat your relationship with jazz is at the start.And so I’m curious to hear about what your relationshipis with it now?Especially this idea of like the jazz labelor genre being applied to your work and you know,how do you feel like you fit in with that?And, you know, what’s your relationshipwith like what jazz is and how you feellike you’re pulling it forward?Or do you feel like that’s even the right way to put it?Oh, we need like another two hours.[group laughing]Yeah, definitely.Definitely.How many minutes we got left?[group laughing]Part two. Yeah.I’ll just say for me, I think the term jazz is,it’s extremely fascinating to me.I have yo-yoed with it.I’ve gone in and out of, of like I’ve,I’ve been really attracted to it really proud of it,felt completely like disdainful of that term.And now I feel like it I’m just so fascinated.I’m just, I think,the fact that it eats everythingand refuses to be defined? Mm-hmm.And the fact that people want to define itand fight over what it means?And the fact that it’s so maligned by the industryand nobody cares about itand people think it’s not cooland people think it’s traditionaland they think it’s cocktail musicor they think it’s, you know, too complicated.Like all of those things make me so?Just, I just wanna read more about itand know more about itand listen to it more and not know what it is.And I don’t know.I think it’s, it’s fantastic.Yeah. [group laughing]Like it’s a mess, it’s a total mess.Yeah. And you know,it’s weird because it’s like, when someone says,Oh, you’re a jazz musician.I think most people that I know,well actually a lot of people that I know will go,[Cécile grimacing]Really?I don’t know if you could say, if you could qualify it,so I just think even just that reaction is so interesting,so fascinating. Yeah, yeah.Yeah. I have, yeah,so many thoughts, but I think the, I mean,there’s many reasons for peoplehaving that reaction and I’m realizing that one of itis the word itself because many of us are startingto learn its origins and its originswas white people making fun of black peoplefor playing the music, you know,like literally it’s a bad word that they shorten to jazz.So I think like the conception-But even that is like, you kind of-It’s silly.I mean, it’s dumb, like it’s so dumb.It’s like so part of our culture.Yeah and it’s, we flipped it.Like we flip everything else, you know, that’s what we do.We flip it. Yeah, yeah.Make it work for you, you know?But so yeah. It’s like, you know,it’s a little bit, it’s a little bit sillyand that is the push pull, I think.And it’s not, I don’t think it’s, I think it’s like,especially heightened in our lineage,but it really is present in every format,particularly of, you know,music that exists like from indigenousor black or brown people in a white continentor like a, you know, white supremacist continent.Right.Rather than a white continent,cause we here but like- Yeah.Is that there’s always a push pullbetween making the thingand then them trying to define youand like, yeah, grab it and like, hold itand like make sense of the thing you’re doing.And you’re like, well,like you want people to understand it,but also you don’t really want itto be that controlled, you know?So you wanna be able to define it.You want to be able to change if you,and that’s the other history of it too, right?Is like, it’s just art is changing all the time.Exactly. Any of your favorite artistsis like, they just change 70 times.Some of those changes, I don’t really like them records,but I’m glad they changed, you know?And that’s, for me what it means, it’s like,that’s the Wayne Shorter, right?I dare you, that’s what he says it is,which I like it’s like- I love that.But speaking to that, even, I would venture to saythat I think a lot of people would categorizewhat we do as jazz,but there are groups of people, many probably who-Yes. Definitely not.Three people are not jazz musicians.[group laughing]Right? 100%.They’re not playing jazz. Right.So it’s, it’s a funky little thing, right?Yeah. Yeah.And I think if we focus more on like,well, I don’t know, like you have such a soundand creative mind and Cécile has such a,like, I really feel like it’s this force,like the force of Cécile and the force of Samoraand the force of all these artists that we have, you know,learned from whether it’s from the recordings or, you know,just conversations like,it’s so profound, you know?And I couldn’t possibly categorize, have one word to,you know, although creative music is interesting.What do you think of that term?Huh?The only reason I have trouble is because I’m likewhat isn’t creative music?But, you know, that’s, I think,the problem with all the terms, cause like,but I think what I do hear you saying,which I do really connect to is that I thinkI really connect to the lineage that people also name that.Yeah. And I don’t ever wantto let go of that. Right.Cause I really like, those are my people.Yeah. And then I also,and this is something I don’t knowthat I always would’ve said,but I’m also deeply excited about being in communitywith other people that people would define as that now.Mm-hmm. And obviously, y’all are,you know, that’s like, it’s like those,I definitely I’m like, that’s what I want.I wanna be a part of like that conversationand that community. Yeah.That’s, when you talk about community.I think that’s what it is for me.The only other thing too, that I’ll say too,is it became a lot easier for me to accept,well, it became a lot easier for mewhen I decided to start making different,like working in different artistic disciplines?That weren’t just music. Right.Because then I was like,now I’m not just like making hell of different genresthat no one like knows what my music is.Cause that’s mostly the reaction I get is like,Where does this?I don’t really know where to put this.But now I’m like,now you really don’t, now you really don’t know.[Samora laughing]Yeah. And I kind of like that.Yeah.Like I just wanted to give a shout out to Sumi Tonooka,who’s my partner in crime,for the project that brought us together.I mean, Creative Reflections supported by Doris Duke.You know, Sumi, her first gig was at 19with Philly Joe Jones.Like that was her first professional gigand going on the road with himand all the stories and you know,and we talk about this a lot,like what is jazz and how are we collaboratingand why is it so easy for us to improvise together?And, you know, just talking about her,also her explorations into her ancestry,as both, you know, her father was African American,her mother was Japanese.And, just like, you know,how the stories that she’s telling through her playing.You know, I just it’s, I just really see such complete art,like these individuals,and now I’m rereading Robin Kelly’s Monk book.Mm, the greatest. The greatest.The best book. And just seeing, you know,how he was battling with? Same stuff.Same stuff and like people getting more play than himand him feeling like frustratedthat he wasn’t, you know, being regardedas as influential as he was.And it’s like, wow.And, and just how he, I mean,I feel like most of the book is him struggling, like to,you know, it it’s really crazy,to know how much he struggled and just like,that’s why history’s so important, you know?For us not to forget that journeyand for Robin to have written that,done the research, you know? Yes.Yeah, so it’s?I don’t know how to wrap that up, but.[group laughing]We out here. Yeah.To that point,yeah, do any of you like have like an albumor any shows coming up that you would like to mentionbefore we, before we wrap up, like tour?Anything like that?I would just like to shout out the projectthat Doris Duke is supporting that I’m doing,which is Ogresse, which is a murder balladabout a woman living in the woods who eats peoplewhen they come to attack her.We’re making it into future length film,and we’re gonna perform a live version of itat the Walker in Minneapolis. Okay.So, I’m really excited about that.Yay.Such a great museum and place.I’m excited. [Jen laughing]Well, the M³, we have our big festival in June.Definitely wanna give a shout out.June 16th, 17th, 18th, 21st, and then the gals,the 22nd at Greenwich House Music School.And of course Sumi, our project.We’re still in the research phase.We’ve interviewed Jenny Lim and Toshiko Akiyoshiand Amenia Claudia Myers is next on our list,[Jen chuckling]the amazing Amenia.So, yeah, and the piece we’re creatingis called In the Green Room, layering legaciesof black and Asian American women jazz musicians,and kind of alongside that I should be finishing this year,a piece for 20 orchestral memberswho will serve as choir also.We’ll be moving and actingin a piece called Fertile Land, Fertile Bodyabout fertility, it’s connection to the landand climate crisis.And it’ll be an orchestra of, yeah,20 women and non-binary artistswhom I haven’t selected yet, but will.[Jen laughing]But yeah, so that’s kind of happening.Probably will be the next album.Cool. As well, so.Yeah. Yeah.What do you got? So exciting.No, I just wanna experience all those things.That’s really, but yeah, I’m the projectthat Doris Duke, among others,helped me to create is called The Healing Project.And that is it basically isn’t comes in three parts.So the first part is an exhibition,which is currently on view in San Franciscoat the Yerba Buena Center for the Arts until September 4th.And it is free and open to the public,which I am like so excited about.And then hopefully after that,it will travel to other cities.Then there’s also a digital archive,which we just launched last week,which anybody can find at healingprojectarchive.com.Mm-hmm. And then the last pieceis my album, which is called Grief,which people can find anywhere that you find music.[Samora chuckling]Yeah and they should buy that album,instead of streaming it. Please buy it.Thank you for that. Exactly, yes.Or yeah. Support the musicians.Yes, exactly.Well, thank you all so muchfor being so generous with your timeand taking the time to speak with me today.This was really wonderful.Thanks everyone out in the rest of the worldfor joining us today.Like I said, please buy these artists music.Don’t just stream it.If they are coming through your town by,buy a ticket, buy your friend to ticket.Thank you so much to the Doris Duke Charitable Foundationfor having us and helping us put this on.We’ve got- And also,Yerba Buena Center for the Arts, right?Who is part of your, and Walker Arts Centerand Asia Society.I just wanna make sure I got that in there.[Jen chuckling]Great, thank you.Yeah, we’ve got sat Cécile McLorin Salvant, Jen Shyu,and Samora Pinderhughes.I’m Allison Hussey with Pitchforkand see ya down the road.[lively jazz music]
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